Emma Rose Kowalisyn


My Dear Sweet Emma,

I hope you know how cherished and loved you are. I hope you know that not a minute goes by that I don’t think about you. Not a day goes by that I don’t wonder what life would be like with you. I wish so much that we could have you here with us, that you we’re growing up alongside your twin brother, and that I could hear you giggle, talk, or even cry in the middle of the night. Every evening that I tuck your brother into bed and say goodnight I wish that I was sharing this with you as well. Every month that goes by I pray that we will never stop feeling your presence with us. I imagine you as you should be, 21 months old with dark brown hair and blue eyes like your brother and Daddy. You would be my cuddle buddy. I would sing you silly songs as you giggled and squealed while I dress you up in frilly dresses and admire just how amazing you are. We would become the best of friends as you grow up, I would protect you, I would guide you, and I would teach you how important it is to be a loving, Christian woman. I would help you to pick out your wedding dress, your Daddy would walk you down the aisle, and just like that you would no longer be our baby girl but a beautiful woman ready to start a family of her own. I know that none of this will happen, but I will always dream of what could have been. What I do know is that when my time comes and I finally get to see you again, I will hold you in my arms and may never let go. To hold you again is what keeps me going every day, but until that time I will cherish the 23 days I had with you here on earth and will always hold you in my heart. I love you so much.

Your Mommy